::i feel like...::

It is hard not to cry sometimes.

For me, it is hard not to cry most of the time.

But there are some things you can't not cry about.

Luckily, I know a good place to cry.

When you are in the shower, you are most likely alone.

You have the noise of the water coming down on you so you can cry as loud as you want.

You can wail and scream and pant, and it's alright.

You are alone.

The water may as well be Niagara falls.

Piercing, reeling, bloody.

The water also mixes with your tears.

You can pretend that the salt water and real water are both coming out of you.

You can pretend that the rage and rush of the fountain are all of your feelings.

Enough to drown you.

You can release everything you feel when walking through crowds of people.

You can forget your family is moving.

You can forget that you are missing a major piece of you.

You can pretend that the tears are just chemical properties.

Part of your physiology.

Instead of the gut-ripping, intensifying, earth shattering feelings they really are.

Luckily, I know a good place to cry.

When you are in the shower, you are most likely alone.

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